A low moment....

I couldn't blog last night, eat or sleep (tho' I was exhausted) ...I felt too 
frustrated.......

That morning we'd watched the boats struggle home in a high swell bringing us 
another blue day and the mood was good with the Cove Guardians. 

I'm not going to go into too much detail about the dolphin transfer from one 

of the harbour pens because it's still too raw, and Sea Shepherd tells it 

better ..Sea Shepherd Cove Guardians Page

I was in one of the cars following that poor dolphin and can assure you that 

we did everything in our power to stay behind that truck.... writing this 

sticks in my throat as 2 cars should have had no problem following a slow 

truck.... 

After our failed efforts to follow the transfer the Cove Guardians went for 

an evening walk in Taiji, nobody wanted to go out to eat...... and it was 

better to walk away my frustration than the alternative which would have 

been a large red wine. The police were there to keep track of us as usual.

It was nice to have the feeling of control back...them following us ... 

if only for that short time. 

8:30am ... it's morning as I type.. a new fresh and hopefully better day. 

The boats are out again as expected  ... nature is on the hunters side 

as the seas are not too rough...so we pray that luck is on our side. 

Maybe because I am already feeling low, but for the first time in 

3 campaigns I want to book the first flight out of here. I won't ... I 

know I have to focus and grow from what happened yesterday. But right now

this minute I'm struggling to do it. I'm sat away from the other Guardians, 

including John, because I want to cry. I am sure there have been worse 

moments .. maybe I should read back through my blogs to remind myself...

 ....I can hear the excitement building behind me as 2 boats are in and 

more are spotted heading home .. they are not driving .... there are murmurs 

of another blue day..hell.... maybe I won't cry after all.